Missing Things I Shouldn't Be Missing.
Hello :)
Long time no update haha. Im sorry, lately i have no motivation whatsoever to do anything at all, i have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.
Do you ever like...you know what you do wrong, and you know what you have to work on, yet you don't do anything about it even though you really want to? Lack of motivation. Absolute. Lack. Of. Motivation.
This is the situation i'm in. I know my mistakes and i know what i have to do but i just don't do it! Nothing can ever make me go "oh hell no i needa study i aint going on twitter or tumblr little shits i got work to do n im finishing it,"nothing has ever motivated me enough to study well and get A's. I'm just so dispassionate about everything that i'm so disappointed in myself. Why can't i be like those other people who study 24/7? ugh.
If given the chance, i would change every single thing about myself. I hate everything about myself. My face, my hair, my attitude, my thighs. Everything. I wish i wasn't even alive sometimes, like, why waste space on earth right?
Oh well, moving on from the depressing stuff..
Not much happened lately. Well, today was the 11:11 make a wish thing at school, it was totes fun but i was only there for a few hours.
Ermmmm. I don't even know what i'm doing with my life anymore ahahha i think i spend too much time thinking about the future eventhough i havent even finished PMR ahahahhhaha
Yes i do, Ronald. Yes i do.
Anyhoo, life at school is so boring haha. I don't like routinely things. Wake up, go to school, suffer, go back home, homework, sleep. I get bored easily, so i like surprises i guess lol. I miss choral speaking practice :( I miss doing something im good at. In class i just feel like a dumbfuck because ugh everyone is so frigging smart.
Whatever happened to being positive lol. I just miss a lot of things. The way everything used to be, the people i used to be friends with, the uncomplicated life. But i know no matter how much i yearn for the past to come back to me, it never will. And i'll keep missing out on what's happening in the present. I just. I just miss it :(
I'm just grateful for the friends i have now. Seriously, they are the most amazing friends ever. and i love them forever. Without them God knows how i'd be like :) ((((cheesy post ew haha)))
HAIH
not an especially positive or uplifting post, sorry. I know nobody cares anyway hah :) bye.
Long time no update haha. Im sorry, lately i have no motivation whatsoever to do anything at all, i have no idea what the hell is wrong with me.
Do you ever like...you know what you do wrong, and you know what you have to work on, yet you don't do anything about it even though you really want to? Lack of motivation. Absolute. Lack. Of. Motivation.
This is the situation i'm in. I know my mistakes and i know what i have to do but i just don't do it! Nothing can ever make me go "oh hell no i needa study i aint going on twitter or tumblr little shits i got work to do n im finishing it,"nothing has ever motivated me enough to study well and get A's. I'm just so dispassionate about everything that i'm so disappointed in myself. Why can't i be like those other people who study 24/7? ugh.
If given the chance, i would change every single thing about myself. I hate everything about myself. My face, my hair, my attitude, my thighs. Everything. I wish i wasn't even alive sometimes, like, why waste space on earth right?
Oh well, moving on from the depressing stuff..
Not much happened lately. Well, today was the 11:11 make a wish thing at school, it was totes fun but i was only there for a few hours.
Ermmmm. I don't even know what i'm doing with my life anymore ahahha i think i spend too much time thinking about the future eventhough i havent even finished PMR ahahahhhaha
Yes i do, Ronald. Yes i do.
Anyhoo, life at school is so boring haha. I don't like routinely things. Wake up, go to school, suffer, go back home, homework, sleep. I get bored easily, so i like surprises i guess lol. I miss choral speaking practice :( I miss doing something im good at. In class i just feel like a dumbfuck because ugh everyone is so frigging smart.
Whatever happened to being positive lol. I just miss a lot of things. The way everything used to be, the people i used to be friends with, the uncomplicated life. But i know no matter how much i yearn for the past to come back to me, it never will. And i'll keep missing out on what's happening in the present. I just. I just miss it :(
I'm just grateful for the friends i have now. Seriously, they are the most amazing friends ever. and i love them forever. Without them God knows how i'd be like :) ((((cheesy post ew haha)))
HAIH
not an especially positive or uplifting post, sorry. I know nobody cares anyway hah :) bye.
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