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Hello :) It's been a tough past few days for me....hm. but i'm still alive, so, i guess I'm alright. Well, I've been meaning to update these past few days but...slow internet :( First of all, i just wanna say something, not to everybody in general, just you. yeah, you. you know who you are. Hi. *If you know you're not the you i'm talking bout then skip to below, after the second star.*  I know you're reading this. or maybe not. Or you probably are. I'm not sure, but there's a 97% probability that you are, in fact, reading the words i have typed out to this blog. Gosh, i sound so formal. Sorry for that. um anyway, well. i haven't talked to you for the past week and that's all my fault. Sorry for blocking you...that was really mean of me. But i hope you understand, i just really want to move on and it hurt me over and over seeing you on my timeline or news feed or anywhere. So that's why i blocked you..and maybe yeah, somethin...

Hi everyone :) First of all, have you heard about what happened at Gaza? Absolutely horrible. Those stupid, stupid, brainless Israelis have attacked and invaded Gaza, rockets and all. It was absolutely horrible, especially since the day they attacked them was the day of new year, according to the Islamic calender. Everyone was talking about it, and it got an international reaction. Seriously though, I don't, and never will, understand the purpose of war. So i was googling about it and this came up.. " What is the purpose of war? Why do humans have to kill each other? No purpose. War is against  human nature . They never flare up spontaneously but are started deliberately by  governments  through  propaganda  and brainwashing. Which says more about governments than genuine human nature. In fact, most soldiers in wars never kill other people because its against their nature. The killing is performed by crazed individuals or by artillery fire (because art...

Hello. Just a rant today, no stories.  Really, though, I wonder if God decided i was "special" and put some sort of charm to me that makes everyone i touch (figuratively) get bad luck.  I'm not just saying it because of something that happened once, I've actually done research.  For example: Before my parents got me, they were pretty happy and living an affordable life with my brother, who was still a child back then. And then, as soon as my mum got pregnant of me, everything goes downhill. I won't tell you what, exactly, but it was most definitely the hardest time of their life when I was in my mother's belly. And after I came out... well things were and are still bad.  And then...all my best friends....every single one of them had a happy life, minor problems of course, but as soon as they became close to me...they faced so many major, MAJOR problems. Of course i wont tell what kind of problems, that's pretty private. But their problem...

i have never felt so alone in my entire life.

BLINK (Part i) Cold, the world felt so cold. Without him, life wasn't worth living. He was the fire in my life. The only one that kept me going. Now he's gone, the fire's out, and all of the warmth I had when he was still around was now gone along with him. I was cold. I remembered all those wonderful memories we had had together. We had known each other since we were in high school, Aaron and I. He was the quiet, social outcast. While I, on the other hand, was the popular, golden girl in school. A straight A student with the perfect figure and looks, all the guys were after me, and I basked in the attention they gave me. I loved being the queen of the school, and like any other typical teenage bimbo, I believed the "friends" I had gained would never leave my side. Oh, how naive of me.. Though I had my pick of the boys lining up for me, Aaron, that awkward, quiet dweeb, had caught my eye. I don't know what it was about him that had caught my eye, ...