A bringer of bad luck.

Hello.

Just a rant today, no stories. 

Really, though, I wonder if God decided i was "special" and put some sort of charm to me that makes everyone i touch (figuratively) get bad luck. 

I'm not just saying it because of something that happened once, I've actually done research. 

For example: Before my parents got me, they were pretty happy and living an affordable life with my brother, who was still a child back then. And then, as soon as my mum got pregnant of me, everything goes downhill. I won't tell you what, exactly, but it was most definitely the hardest time of their life when I was in my mother's belly. And after I came out... well things were and are still bad. 

And then...all my best friends....every single one of them had a happy life, minor problems of course, but as soon as they became close to me...they faced so many major, MAJOR problems. Of course i wont tell what kind of problems, that's pretty private. But their problems were so bad and they came to me for help and i'd help and then i leave (change school) and suddenly their life is happy again. 

I swear I'm not being paranoid, or maybe I am. But there's so much proof that leads to the inevitable: I bring bad luck to everyone i love. 

But the thing is, I hate being alone. I have to be constantly surrounded by friends to feel safe, because when I'm alone I overthink and that makes me feel like shit. When I'm alone I ponder all the negative stuff and of course, that will have a negative effect on me. 

So, I don't want anyone of my friends or my family to get this bad luck i'm carrying around. but how do i protect them when i obviously cant leave my family, and the friends I have are too precious for me to lose? 

I just want them to be safe from everything. Please, Ya Allah, protect my family and friends. Please.