What's the use of playing, a game you're gonna lose?

Heeelllloooooo everyone!

Sorry i haven't updated in so long, i've been horribly mobbed with school and stuff!

Nothing much happened, though, within the time frame that I wasn't updating.

I did, however, have the PRS Installation, where i was installed to be an official PRS :D I had to dance that day....and i was horrible.........................but i got my badge! :D im so happy and honoured to be  a PRS, and i really hope i can be a good one!

and that day i went for ATP.............i just cant. even. ok.

blekkkkkkkkkkkkk i dont feeel like saying anything else. so, goodbye for now! :)

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